What is the difference? I asked him. Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?
One is a choice, and one is not.
Tarryn Fisher (in Mud Vein)
do you ever look through old pictures and think, “where the heck did that shirt go?”
“She started to talk less and to act like she doesn’t care. She started to ignore the things that were supposed to hurt her feelings. She started to walk away and distant herself from people unlike before. She started to act like she doesn’t need help from anyone—that she’s strong and she can do everything by herself. She started to reject most of everyone’s advices and pretend that she did not hear anything from anyone. She started to forgot how does it feels like to care for someone. She started not to join her friends and isolate herself from others. She started to become cold and remove all of the emotions in her words. She started to look at anyone with her passionless eyes. She started to cut her wrist every night because she wants to feel the pain—to feel that she’s still existing. She started to act like she changed, when in fact her heart was still the same.”
Suicide is more than cutting wrists, jumping bridges, and having headshots. Sometimes, suicide is the same as breathing, eating, sleeping, and walking.